the greatest battles are those in the mind.

so long since i last blogged.
8th feb. alumin dinner. i stayed in the school the whole day. reached home at 10.30. damn late. bathe and slept. zzz.
12th feb. anti drugs dance competition at ngee ann civics plaza. we danced pretty well even though we didnt win anything in the end, we knew we had tried our best. my bag was STOLEN! wandering whats in my bag? my wallet which consist of a damn rich ez link =( , money, cashcard, puremink card, popular card, passion card, citigems card, IC!!! argh. my 2days old zen neeon! my beloved handphone. canon camera!!! my pencil box. my compass. my calculator. my shirt. my fnn notes!!! thats my heart blood kays. one full year of notes i jotted down. all gone. my maths ex bk. my poa ex bk. oh man!!! i was damn sad. damn scared. i cried. well obviously!?! thousand over dollar stuffs gone in a day. hais. ms ng brought me to popular. bought my pens, poa ex bk, compass, protractor.. well, basically, all the things that are needed for school and the common tests the next day. mama talked to mdm oh over the phone. mdm oh cried. seriously i was wondering why she cried. she was supposed to take care of our stuff. but. hais. i was really really not in the mood to do anything that day. guess i'm flunking my maths and fnn tests? mama scolded my for the stuffs i lost. but seriously, i DONT think its my fault. hais. whatever.
13th feb. i promised to myself to led life as per normal. i couldnt do it. guess i was very much affected by it. i broke down. geography and social studies just couldnt get into my head. i really want to finish studying them up as soon as possible. but they just couldnt get in to my brain. i was totally stressed up.
14th feb. i was feeling very much better. at least i could study. sat ms ng's car home. ponned dance committee meeting. just cant bring myself there. the look of mdm oh make me feel WEIRD. i dont know why. but im definitely avoiding her. happy V day peeps.
TODAY. finished all the common tests!!!! woah! feeling so much relaxed. did poa after school (extra lesson) went home at aroung 6 plus. sat ms tang's car to toa payoh. heh. saved lots of my time! =)

ms ng told me ms tang is expecting alot from me. mr nur expects at least 5dist from me. argh. who doesnt want that. well i'm trying my best. no matter at which ever point, i maybe lousy, but i definitely wont give up on myself. but i really need to know how to handle stress first ya?